By Anna Ilona Mussmann
I wonder if sometimes we let cultural pressure merge with our theology until the way we think about vocation is too focused on being sure that we are making the decisions that are best for us. Perhaps we are influenced more than we realize by worldly pressure to find our dream jobs, our soulmates, and other fancy-sounding, 100%-perfect solutions to the questions of life. Ultimately, this can lead to a great deal of second-guessing, discontent, and self-doubt. We can even end up regretting our vocations and envying those of others.
Sitting
with my fellow students during the lunch break of an on-campus session about
vocation, I listened as one of them bemoaned the difficulty of choosing her
degree. She was interested in a particular program that might lead to a good
career, but wondered if she would really enjoy the job. She also felt drawn
toward a more philanthropic field, but wondered if it was foolish to take on
debt for low-paying work. We all agreed that selecting one’s vocation was
hard--there were so many ways to serve one’s neighbors. How was one to know
which was best?
A
well-meaning older lady turned around to join our conversation. She reminded us
of the lecture that we had just heard, and pointed out that a Lutheran
understanding of vocation freed us to pick any legitimate field of work. She
seemed to think that this solved our problems. I’m afraid that we were annoyed.
The truth was that no matter how liberating the doctrine of vocation is, we
still had to pick our majors and live with the consequences.
Certain
times of life require decisions. I was born into some of my vocations (for
instance, that of daughter) but others (teacher, wife, and friend) have come
about because of my own choices. Sometimes these choices are a source of
delight. It can be awesome to be a newly-minted adult, able to pursue knowledge
in a field one loves. It can be amazing to serve one’s neighbors--anyone who
asks--with all of the freedom that accompanies the single life. Accepting a
proposal of marriage, buying a house, or heading off to the mission field can
make for deeply meaningful thrills. Yet sometimes, all of this freedom feels
merely like an opportunity to select the wrong option. There is often a lot of
stress involved in leaping into the dark and unknown future. As I get older, I
can see that there is sometimes also stress involved in living, long-term, with
the fruits of one’s youthful choices.
I wonder if sometimes we let cultural pressure merge with our theology until the way we think about vocation is too focused on being sure that we are making the decisions that are best for us. Perhaps we are influenced more than we realize by worldly pressure to find our dream jobs, our soulmates, and other fancy-sounding, 100%-perfect solutions to the questions of life. Ultimately, this can lead to a great deal of second-guessing, discontent, and self-doubt. We can even end up regretting our vocations and envying those of others.
Oddly
enough, I think we can learn something about how to make life decisions from
cozy mystery novels. The term “cozies” is used to describe stories in which
amateur sleuths work within the confines of a single village, household, or
other small circle in order to solve murders. The perpetrators are genteel,
ordinary people who were pushed over the edge by greed, fear, or other
relatable human passions-- “cozies” are not about psychopaths or the grittier
side of life. The percentage of mid-twentieth-century individuals who were
killed while attending house parties in England could not possibly be as high
as the death toll in these books indicates, but that does not stop fans from
snuggling up with the works of Dame Christie and other authors of the genre.
While
reading Death
at Wentwater Court, a sweetly implausible, cozy mystery by Carola Dunn,
I was struck with the theological implications of the heroine’s activities. She
travels to an English country estate. Naturally, a dead body is soon found.
Even more naturally, within a few days she manages to discover the sad and
shocking tale behind the corpse’s demise.
Skeptical
readers might ask why a young lady, however curious and intelligent, would
throw herself into the role not only of solving a crime but also of deciding
how justice should be meted out afterwards. Is it her place to interfere with
the police in the execution of their duties? Is it appropriate for her to
meddle with the intimate secrets of someone else’s family? Fortunately for the
plot, such scruples do not stop the heroine of Death at Wentwater Court.
In this, we can find an unintended illustration of Christian doctrine.
When
an amateur sleuth sees a body, she does not stop and ask herself if solving
crime is really God’s will for her life, and/or the thing that will truly make
her happy, and/or the 100%-guaranteed absolutely best investment of her time
and money. She does not suffer angst from the knowledge that solving this crime
will prevent her from being available for other good works. Or, at least, if
she does suffer any of these doubts, the reader knows perfectly well that such
questions will not prevent her from taking detective action.
When
we as Christians question our vocations, perhaps we should behave a little bit
more as if we were the heroine of a murder mystery novel. Perhaps we should
agonize a bit less over “seeking God’s will,” and instead act with confidence
in the roles that He has given us (assuming, of course, that those roles are in
accordance with Scripture). Instead of trying to find the perfect way to serve,
let us start by doing something--anything--to help the, er, corpses on our
doorstep.
I
appreciate the way Mark
Surburg puts it on his blog:
“We make the best decision we can, and then we go forward, walking by faith. We can do this because God’s great ‘Yes!’ to us in the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ (2 Corinthians 1:20) gives us the assurance that God works for our good no matter how things may appear. God’s ability to weave together our contingent decisions into His divine purpose is wrapped up in the same mysterious working by which He was able to elect us in Christ from all eternity. Paul tells us, ‘And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose’ (Romans 8:28).”
When
we make life decisions, perhaps it is good to merely to ask, “Is this a corpse
upon which I could practice detection?” Or, in other words, “Is this a field of
employment in which I could do honorable work, earn my daily bread, and not go
completely crazy from a mismatch of personality and job duties?” “Is this a man
whom I could love, honor, and serve as a wife?” “Is this a house that I could
care for and make into a home for my family?”
When
we question our past decisions, let us ask, “Is this the man that God gave me
as a husband?” “Are these my children?” “Is this crotchety old man the neighbor
who lives next door?” “Am I the person who could rescue
this kitten?” and then, knowing that the answer is yes, move forward in the
confidence that God wants us to love and serve the people (or creatures) whom
we are amongst.
Of
course we are allowed to consider the pros and cons of different options. Of
course we should pray about them and ask for advice from our fellow Christians.
However, for those of us who are agonizing over our choices with a vague notion
that we’re supposed to find dream jobs, soulmates, or other nonsense, let’s
just focus on making good (or even “good enough”) decisions. Decisions that
solve mysteries, thwart crime, and lead to denouement on page one-hundred and
eleven. Let’s not try to make perfect decisions. We’ll leave those to God.
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After graduating from Concordia Wisconsin, Anna taught in Lutheran schools for several years and became so enthusiastic about Classical Education that she will talk about it to whomever will listen. She is a big fan of Jane Austen, dark chocolate, and the Oxford comma. Anna and her husband live in Pennsylvania with their small son (and are awaiting the arrival of baby #2, due in July). Anna's personal blog is Don't Forget the Avocados and her work can also be found in The Federalist.
Great post, much appreciated!
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